You are not alone

Yesterday, I met with my counselor for an hour.  I started last month after coming to a point where it was obvious I needed help.  Today, it's been 6 weeks since I've started taking 50 mg of sertraline daily.  I've kept it a secret except from my immediate family, because I've been ashamed that I couldn't take care of things myself.  I do think it's helping my control my mood extremes.  I want my family & friends to be around me, not step back because I'm obnoxiously friendly or brooding.  I've been both.  I wonder if I'm bipolar.  I am trying to trust in God more, ask Him to help me when I can't seem to function...

One thing I'm doing is devoting more time to things I like to do.  I plan to read this book.  And just finished this one (below) last night!  It was written beautifully, set about 100 years ago, about sisters who were neglected as young girls and are now old women...

One of the best things a friend said to me is "You are not alone."  We all struggle.

What makes you smile?

20 things that make me smile:

Sunshine on my face
A baby falling asleep in my arms
Seeing someone help another
A clean house
Chocolate
Hiking
Brie en croute
Crocheting
Bare feet
Tea
Honey
The stars at night
Fresh air
The moon
Birds chirping
Drawing
Turquoise
A good book
Being kissed

Yesterday, George repeatedly climbed up the chairs and stood on the table.  Paul said "I'm sad because now we will have to put away our table...where will we eat dinner?" He remembered that 2 weeks ago we put the coffee table away (George was standing on that numerous times everyday and falling).  We will keep the dining room table, and try to be patient through this stage.  But it made me laugh.  What makes you smile or laugh?

Thoughts on Nativity

Yesterday, we celebrated our Lord God's birth.  Having children has helped me realize that although we love them and want to mould them, they are unique and have a plan.  How did the Theotokos feel when her Son was crucified and resurrected?  I'm a mix of emotions, all the time....

We gave and received....

Homemade giant bath bombs (from my sister in Canada).  Chocolate for my mom (from my other sister in Oregon) which she generously shared with us!

We had a festive day and lovely dinner at my mom's house, with my one sister (who lives nearby) and her family.

Olivia's arm extended, trying to get Paul in, but he was busy playing.

And these 2 one year old cousins with their matching knit bonnets!

This morning brekkie was eggs and rosemary bread (that my niece made for us).

Hope you enjoy your time with family & friends today.  And remember to thank God for all things!  
P.S. Thank you to Melinda who has a gift for bringing people together.